Whether you love social media (#teachersofinstagram!), you hate it, or you are just plain sick of all the noise, teachers are using social channels to share the toll that pandemic teaching is taking. In the hardest year of our professional lives, sharing our vulnerability and keeping it real is the best way we can support each other. Teachers are often optimists, skilled at putting on a happy face, rolling up their sleeves, and soldering on. But at what cost? Thank you to all the teachers who are speaking up, sharing their experience, and letting us all know that we aren’t the only ones who don’t know how much more we can take.
“Today I wanted to scream, cry, run, and hide all in the same moment”
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“A continuous pain in the head” Is the formal definition of the word Headache 🤕 Can you literally see the headache in my forehead?! Today I wanted to scream, cry, run, hide, and sleep all in the same moment My body is showing me all the signs that I should be paying attention to. Headache Dehydrated Moody Acne Anxiety I don’t think my body can create anymore messages to my brain to tell it to slow down and rethink covid teaching. I think I have developed more wrinkles from scrunching my nose to adjust my mask teaching, thankfully I don’t see any grey hair yet. Today, I became frustrated when my class told another teacher that I give too much work. Me?!?! I was shocked. I sat down with them and we had an open discussion about how to organize the work so they know what is being graded (For the teachers here, all mandatory assignments in google classroom now get a ⭐️ in front of it, that’s the new system) That discussion made them and myself feel better. They now see that it is exactly the same amount of work as the other teacher (we compared 😂 and we do it in class on the days they are there) and the kids had input which built upon our mutual respect. I know I should be excited because this is exactly what students asked for, but I can’t help but compare my teaching ability this year to my past 4 years. I’m trying to give myself grace but the enneagram 1 in me is crying! What does giving yourself grace actually look like? Drop your comments below👇🏼 of how your giving yourself grace during this year? It doesn’t have to be teacher related. #secondaryteacher #headhurts #covidteaching #brainhurts #eslteacher #givegrace #goalgetters #iteach #iteachtoo #iteachhs #thenewnormal #thenewnormal😷 #jewelrywithmeaning #jewelrywithapurpose #jewelrywithintention #anxietysupport #anxietyproblems #anxietyattack #teachertired #napqueen #jeepwranglersahara #covid_19😷 #covidkindness #graceandgrit #graceupongrace
It feels like we experience so many different emotions every day. One minute we think, “I’m doing ok,” and the next we are in tears. If you think you are the only one feeling all the feels, know that you aren’t alone. Pandemic teaching is an emotional rollercoaster.
“How we will survive a year like this?”
You are not the only one who has thought: “Dang — my students hate this right now. They are bored out of their minds. I am failing miserably. How will we survive a year like this?”
A teacher teaching virtually
— Dwayne Reed (@TeachMrReed) September 12, 2020
This is hard for us. It’s hard for our kids. It’s exhausting, and so many of us feel like we are failing miserably. You’re showing up. You’re doing the work. At the end of the day, you’re trying your best, and while it may not feel like that’s enough, it is.
“It’s OK to not be OK all the time”
So many of us are Type A. We are perfectionists who are really hard on ourselves. Thanks for the reminder. If you need to cry, cry. If you need to laugh, laugh. Take the nap if you need it. There’s no roadmap for pandemic teaching. You do you.
“We are humans. We can only do so much”
It’s hard to work 24/7 and still feel like you aren’t doing enough. Everyone seems to have an opinion about how teachers should do their jobs right now. Unless you’ve taught in a classroom, your feedback isn’t helpful! If you feel like you are at your wit’s end with pandemic teaching, know that you’re not the only one.
“I’m tired of having to defend my profession”
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There’s a saying, “There’s no tired like teacher tired” and that is especially true this year. And many have it worse. . . Because of my husband’s health concerns this summer, I was fortunately allowed to teacher in our virtual school from home. But many colleagues were not given that opportunity. Some are teaching virtually but would rather be in person. Some are teaching students face to face (f2f) while also teaching virtually…at the same time. Teachers are being told to give up their planning, their lunch, their time to actually plan lessons because more teachers are needed to monitor hallways or classes need a sub. Teachers are being forced by the state and districts to go f2f five days a week, even when DHEC says our numbers are going up (looking at you @gcschools). And it is not okay. . . This doesn’t mean that I hate my job. I still love teaching. . . This doesn’t mean I hate my school or district. I still love my school, administrators, and district. They have done a great job during this time of opening cautiously and slowly. . . I’m tired of having to defend my profession to people who don’t know what teaching in a classroom is like. I’m tired of having to explain to my legislators the difference between “duty-free” planning time and “unencumbered” planning time. I’m tired of having a state Education Oversight Committee compromised of mostly non-educators with no practical classroom experience (@govhenrymcmaster). I’m tired of asking our state to fully fund education because there’s “no room in the budget” (but there is room to give a tax break to the Carolina Panthers football team for building a practice facility in our state). . . So if you know a teacher, an aide, a bus driver, an administrator…please show them some extra love. Because I promise you they are tired. ❤️ . . . @scfored #teachertired #fullyfundpubliceducation #teachergram #middleschoolteacher #teacherstress #redfored #teachersarehumanstoo #voteforeducation
Yes, to all of this! Teaching is a job. We shouldn’t expect teachers to go above and beyond at the expense of their own health and well-being. And if you still love teaching but feel powerless right now and want change, we do too.
“I am struggling”
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I typically use this platform as a positive place, but it has been hard to stay positive while teaching in 2020 during a pandemic. I always want to be real here & not make it “picture perfect” or like I have everything together when that is 100% not the case. I am struggling. It is hard going to school every day knowing I am not giving my best to my students because it is physically impossible when we are being pulled a million directions a minute. Virtual teaching is hard. Hybrid teaching is hard. Teaching a room full of students wearing masks is hard. Teaching in a normal, non-pandemic year is hard. This is all hard. The “vibe” of teaching has changed drastically in the last 9 months. We went from being superheroes when we made our classrooms virtual in the blink of an eye in March, to being told we have to teach in person, virtually, & asynchronously at the same time with no training or guidance. Just talking with my friends, family, coworkers, peers, random strangers in the internet, & teachers I follow on social media, I am worried about our profession. I am worried about educators. I am worried about administrators. I am worried about students. I can’t speak for everyone, but I became a teacher for 3 reasons. 1️⃣I saw my mom, an educator of 39 years, love her job every single day & I looked up to that so much. 2️⃣I have a passion for making learning (specifically science) engaging, exciting, & meaningful for students. 3️⃣Plain & simply: I just love kids. It feels like teaching in 2020 is taking away everything I love about teaching. Unfortunately, I have no solutions to these problems. (& no I am not going anywhere or leaving this profession!!!!) I am just here to say you are not alone. Whatever you are feeling is valid. Something has to change.
We couldn’t agree more. At first, teachers were called heroes as we scrambled to teach online. Then, we were asked to teach students in person and online at the same time. The anxiety of not knowing what we will be asked to do next is crushing.
“I feel like I am failing”
Teachers we cannot stay silent. *Edited to add this disclaimer for those who have asked me to make this public… I title this video a broken hearted teacher in the face of district mandated Online standardized testing during a pandemic: Let me be super clear, I thrive on data. Over the years, I have learned so much about my teaching abilities through reading my data, obtained through standardized testing. I read the results, I plan and prepare lessons for remediation and review based on my data. I review the standards that were tested and look at the scores. I dive deep into the state standard and discover what aspects I missed in my lessons. Where and How am I lacking and asking myself, “how can I do better?” Ask anyone who has ever worked with me in education, I am data driven and I take it serious. I truly value and understand the importance of data and the benefit of testing. My state test scores aren’t one of the absolute highest in the entire county for nothing. I succeed because of my hard work and dedication to my craft, collaboration with my civics team, data digging, and a whole lot of Jesus. With that being said, district pretests are the absolute least important thing on my plate right now. It’s unnecessary and puts additional weight on the shoulders of teachers and students who are already stressed to the max. So this video is not a lazy teacher crying that she has to give online students a pretest. It is so much more than that. Watch it in its entirety before commenting on it or judging me for sharing my vulnerable truth.
Posted by Terry Kinder on Thursday, September 10, 2020
It’s heartbreaking when we are asked to do things that aren’t best for us or our kids. How can we test students on something that they haven’t learned? Why are we treating this school year is if it is normal when it is anything but ? Pandemic teaching isn’t normal teaching.
“My heart is so heavy”
At first, we thought this is hard, but we can manage for a while. Now, we are thinking, will this ever end? We are grieving, and we are going through all of the stages. Sometimes we are angry. Sometimes we are in denial. But always, we just want to give our kids the answers that they deserve.
“I’m exhausted. That’s all.”
We are tired. We are working harder than ever. It’s so easy to beat ourselves up. That’s why it is so important for us to talk about how we are feeling. It’s amazing how much better we feel when we tell the truth: pandemic teaching is hard.
“The lunch I don’t have time to eat”
Yup. This is teaching in 2020. We are stressed, pressed for time, and consider ourselves lucky if we manage to actually eat lunch let alone wash our hair! I don’t know what I’d do without dry shampoo.
“Last week I felt as if I was drowning”
Piles of papers. A messy desk. Thank you for keeping it real, and reminding us to listen to our bodies. It’s easier said than done, but we have to take care of ourselves.
“A new kind of teacher tired”
Teaching in an entirely new way with entirely new tools during an unprecedented global pandemic is physically and mentally exhausting. If you are going to sleep at 8:00 on a Saturday, us too!
Social media is usually a highlight reel. We share pictures of our beautiful classroom, our well-organized planner pages, and our successful assignments. While I love getting ideas from other teachers on social, this year what we need most is what’s usually not pictured: teachers getting real about pandemic teaching is the hardest thing they’ve done. When we share our vulnerability with each other, it helps us feel less alone.
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